OMG...This post is after so long....
I was busy in preparing my project.
Speaking to my project, I truly not satisfied what I have written.
Sometime, I just don't understand why I can be so stupid.
I think I can't think analytically, my brain cells is not competent in doing this.
Always get stuck.
Nothing turns out after that.
But, I really do my best in getting everything done nicely.
I don't really go out during the preparation period for my project. I only meet friends during lunch or dinner time.
I can't even pay attention to what ppl talk.
keep thinking about my work.
Mom said, I'm thinking too much and putting so much of stress on myself.
Until, the last minutes....I still can't get off from thinking about it.
Very very disappointing upon my work.
Am I not competent enough or I should have work harder?
In fact, I really do my best. I DO!!!
Although already passed up those project already, I don't really feel happy, perhaps a little bit relief.
Seriously, I think I need a counselling session.
I can't really tell how my feeling is.
But, I'm pretty sure, I am NOT happy.
You guys can't imagine how stressful it is.
We did few assignments before.
But this is so much different from those previous works.
Everyone in the class was so tense up.
One thing I really dislike about myself is.......my poor English.
Grammatical error and framing proper English sentence.
These two can definitely drive me crazy.
That's the thing that makes me needs double works, I really can spend a long time to think just framing a paragraph.
After this, I really swear to get my English done properly,
Oh no...when writing this post....I already started feeling nervous and uneasy.
I think I should cry out loud.
But, I got the problem to express it out.
what is the best thing to keep myself from stop thinking about it?
There is two more exam coming in NOV.
I think I should move on and really strive for the coming exam.
That's how I think.
But, easier say than done.
I have been keep finding some reasons for motivating myself.
I bet crying is always the good thing to release the uneasy feeling.
Anyway, life goes on.
