The mixed feelings

I got a mixed feeling as the exams are getting closer to us.

1st is the panic and tension towards the coming exams. 

2nd is the excited and ecstatic feeling towards the unknown future life.

A changes from a college student to a working person.

Although, I have no ideas how is my working life would be, I certainly gear up for the upcoming challenges. 

First of all, I need to ensure I doing well in the coming exams. 

To be frank, I scared and worried for my proposal as I really think that I screwed up the introduction part. I even think that amma really useless to certain extent. I shouldn't let this thing to happen again. Certainly not!!! 

After few episodes of useless crying, I finally feel better and getting more courage to face the coming final exams. I understand I already did my best and I swear I do try really hard on structuring every part of my proposal. It just that some of the part didn't turn out exactly as what I expected and planned. As long as I know that I already did my best so I should let go those uneasy feelings towards the submitted proposal and strive for the coming exams. (I know you guys probably already sick of listening to my nagging about my proposal!!! >.< I just can't let go this pulling-hair kind of sensation whenever I think about it again.)

Our class still got one practical exam and one presentation are pending, after that we all are free birds!!!!

So that's how the mixed feelings come to my mind. OMG, I just can't believe our class are graduating!!!!!!

Excited, excited and still excited!!!

Ok, I think I shouldn't think and plan so much right now. 

Should have just focus to what I suppose to do at this moment. 

So, wish me luck!!! ^^

No, is wish all of us the best luck!!!!!!!!!!

P/S: I found someone who actually always share the thought as me. *winks*

One of our class trip <3

Miss it. Muazksssss!!!

His Birthday!!!

Finally, I can write this post after completing my mock exam. Everything is fine but more efforts are needed for the actul coming exam >.<

Gambateh!!!

This is a birthday post for Dennis Lieu, my hilarious bf.

We celebrated his birthday one week ago and he was happy and surprised for the birthday celebration.

I planned to give a surprising birthday celebration for him since he did the same for me >.<
Moreover, this is his 21st birthday so I think it is essential to give him something special.
I believe this babi hutan sure is expecting something from me!!!
This is quite headache because I have no ideas what to give him.
But, I still able to come out some ideas 

1. Perfume + birthday card.

He gave me a hint that he wanted a perfume as birthday present.
To be frank, my sense for choosing nice perfume is terrible, whatever I thought is nice, it would not be nice for him
So, I don't know how!!!
Luckily, I got Kai Wen and Subba, they really gave me their hand in time!!!
At last I got a nice perfume with affordable price !!! *wink*

*winks*
Perfume from The Face Shop.

 Gift box.
Like this gift box picture so just uploaded it. ^^

 For him. Blek :p
This time, I really running out of ideas on how to make the card.
This time, the card is a bit simple for him.

2. Customized birthday cake

Yeah, a cake which is specifically made for him with a cartoon version of his face on it.
This is so hard to draw the draft as his eyes is so small!!!! lol

 

 So, I draw a bigger eyes for this. Look cute right?!!!
He do mention that this cartoon face doesn't really look like him.
Overall, he still likes it. ^^

3. Birthday video from Penangites.

I got an ideas to gather all the video with birthday wishes for him.
Thanks for his family members and friends being so cooperative by contributing their efforts to make the respective videos!!!
You guys are really awesome and he is lucky to have you all!!!

TQ so much!!!

Another surprise was given by his KL gang.
We lied to him that only me will be celebrated with him on Wednesday.
In fact, his gang already waited outside Station1 and prepared to come in any time.
I really poor in organisation la.
Cos it almost can't be done due to my nervous and panic action. lol.
Forgot to take more pictures and even our picture with the birthday cake.
Luckily, we still able to surprise him without any prior informed.

The look after getting his gifts.

 Reading the card.
I gave it right before the gang came in.
Cos I really shy to give in front of them >.<

Finally!!!!!!

 

 Cake and the Candles....!!!

 Making his wishes.

 Cutting the cake.

 With the gang.
Take 1.

 With the gang.
Take 2.


Really appreciate the gang willing to come out at midnight just for him.
Really paiseh as I know some of them quite tired after this. Especially tomorrow still got classes and work.
Anyway, TQ so so much!!!


Thanks to everyone who participate in this celebration and make him happy.
TQ!!!

Classes started!!!

OMG, finally we got our first class started yesterday.
This is like FINALLY for us.
Cuz we have been apart since the last 8th placement which is 2 month plus ago....such a long time we lost our contact in class.
Kind of exciting moment when stepped into the class.
Everybody like happily enjoying talking without worrying for the project.
I think I shouldn't cling onto the past (project proposal), I should focus on what I suppose to do now.
But sometime I still can't help myself from not thinking about this. This is definitely a mental torturing for me.

I bet friends already sick of listening to my nagging which is about my mistake in proposal !!! 

This is really heart broken when you need to face certain situation that you will not want to meet with. I think I got it yesterday. Not only me, but the few of us!!! 

I really tell myself at that time, prove to him....you can do it also!!!!! Just do it and just prove it!!!!

I guess I really need a proper plan on structuring a good time table for myself. 

JUST DO IT WITH NO REGRET!!!

Sound very enthusiasm right?!!! So you have better planned it properly.

Well, forget about the sad thing, let talk about something good and happy (like telling myself...>.<)

I got a new phone. Not iphone or samsung galaxy or bla bla bla. 

It is a normal phone but filled with the love from my parents to me!!!! 

I dropped my phone...and it got crashed nicely by car.

then the second phone dropped inside the toilet bowl which I have to kneel down and picked it up again (Don't worry  it is not smelly at all.).

So because of my careless, I left no back-up phone anymore...

Then dad offered a new phone, I said NO at that time (Don't know why I acted like a good girl that time).

But I resume that offer after one week....then dad got me this.......

 Sony Ericsson WT13i... 

 It is quite small but nice for holding.

It only cost my dad RM 270...consider cheap right?

I really love its design and quality of pictures are presentable. Although it is not a smart phone, it is definitely suitable for me in daily use.

Next time will try to upload some picture taken by my phone. 

Anyway, still really wanna thanks to my parents!!! 

That is one of thing that can make me happy about during the proposal time. It does brighten up my day^^ 

Anyway, we gonna be very busy in the next one month. Final is just around the corner....fighting cohort 2!!!

 No pain, No gain.

Wohoo...after so long!!!

OMG...This post is after so long....

I was busy in preparing my project.

Speaking to my project, I truly not satisfied what I have written.

Sometime, I just don't understand why I can be so stupid.

I think I can't think analytically, my brain cells is not competent in doing this.

Always get stuck.

Nothing turns out after that.

But, I really do my best in getting everything done nicely.

I don't really go out during the preparation period for my project. I only meet friends during lunch or dinner time.

I can't even pay attention to what ppl talk.

keep thinking about my work.

Mom said, I'm thinking too much and putting so much of stress on myself.

Until, the last minutes....I still can't get off from thinking about it.

Very very disappointing upon my work.

Am I not competent enough or I should have work harder?

In fact, I really do my best. I DO!!!

Although already passed up those project already, I don't really feel happy, perhaps a little bit relief.

Seriously, I think I need a counselling session.

I can't really tell how my feeling is.

But, I'm pretty sure, I am NOT happy.

You guys can't imagine how stressful it is.

We did few assignments before.

But this is so much different from those previous works.

Everyone in the class was so tense up.

One thing I really dislike about myself is.......my poor English.

Grammatical error and framing proper English sentence.

These two can definitely drive me crazy.

That's the thing that makes me needs double works, I really can spend a long time to think just framing a paragraph.

After this, I really swear to get my English done properly,

Oh no...when writing this post....I already started feeling nervous and uneasy.

I think I should cry out loud.

But, I got the problem to express it out.

what is the best thing to keep myself from stop thinking about it?

There is two more exam coming in NOV.

I think I should move on and really strive for the coming exam.

That's how I think.

But, easier say than done.

I have been keep finding some reasons for motivating myself.

I bet crying is always the good thing to release the uneasy feeling.

Anyway, life goes on.

  

short getaway

I got awesome Raya holidays back in Penang.

Of course, I enjoyed myself at home as well....but Penang is where I can eat non-stop!!! I'm not gaining weight but the tummy is getting bigger la!!! >.<

This time, I'm so lucky to have such opportunity dine at Eastern Oriental Hotel, Penang.

I was so excited cuz I never thought that I could have such chance to pay my visit and trying their dinner buffet here. ^^

While on my way to E&O.

Here got some photos on that day.

The ambiance is just romantic and comfortable to dine in. 

Like 50's

 Full house^^

 There have 3 small corner for chinese food, westem food and mixed Japan & western food.

 A corner for pasta.

We can choose what flavor we like, the chef will cook instantly upon ur order.

 Seafood lover....eat ALL you can!!!!!!!

I felt so satisfied even with a look on them!!! 

 I don't really dare to try it. >.<

 I took a few pieces.

Forgot their name but they all are raw food.

Quite a nice taste though.

Along this row....they got many dishes!!!

Range from steamed fish till dessert.

Just take whatever you like.

 Dessert.

 Fruits chocolate...^^

 Teh tarik or Coffee?!!!

Apart from this, I also visited those famous painting in different street in Penang.

 See, it become a hot spot for tourist already.

 Me and the motorcyclist.

 Bf is just so funny^^

 Pull harder!!!

 Hey, who ask you to climb so high?!!!

 With the famous sis-bro cycling paints.

It is really bad as the vandalism spoil the painting.

But it was cleaned by the night itself, thx god!!!

 This is sweet^^...

 Wow such a big girl!!!

 Trishaw uncle in Penang road.

Those painting are situated in different street so we have to travel by motorbike all around the area. 

I don't really get down from motorbike for photo shooting as those places basically was crowded >.<

Just took those photos while sitting on motorbike.

Overall, I'm contended with this short getaway. Wish to spend more time in Penang, but holiday is over and we have to get bck to college again. 

Bye bye Penang!!!

I need more efforts.

Seriously, I CAN DO IT!!!

This is just simply a quote for encouraging purpose instead of feeling so dying here.wtf

I've been busy with my project lately.

I would say this is so tough to write for a project proposal.

I can't tell exactly how I feel now.

I guess I'm not good in planning. lol

Finally, placement over and holiday over as well.
Went back to home and also Penang.
I like the goyang kaki lifestyle at home...and watch all my fav series and cartoon >.<
I like Penang...cuz I can eat all I can!!!!!!!! (of course the happy hour with my bf).
We got no class for almost one month (now is less than 1 month to the project due date).
Everyone is so worried for the project. Sometimes, I feel sick to face the laptop screen!!!!!
That's make my eyes hurt. T.T
No matter how, I MUST finish my project!!!!!

You can do it!!!

Yo ^^

Ok, I'm not supposed to be free at the moment but I just wanna drop by here and say hi!!!

Oh man...my posting suppose to be completed by this Friday, which mean tmr. But the authority insist us to work till this Saturday!!!! Not happy at all. So I moody the whole day but I still able to smile somehow.

Don't worry, it is just another 1/2 day only!!!

This was how I told myself today. Phew...

I didn't buy ticket earlier for this Raya holiday.

So today, once I got to know have to work 1/2 day on coming Saturday, I started to panic cuz ppl keep telling me ticket is finishing!!!!!!!! (My plan was to just go on Saturday early morning then get ticket and zhao!!!!!!).

So after work, I faster caught Rupan fetched me to TBS to buy ticket. Luckily, I managed to get one!!!!

Thank God!!!!!!

Ok, got to back to my work now ^^