Guilt

I feel guilty.
Not sure what is the exact situation now. I just hope it can be solved ASAP.
Currently, I have been trying my best to recall back is the book with me or I accidentally put back without my knowledge or I never borrow this book at all and it just a mistake? No one can answer me now. I feel so helpless. I willing to take tat responsibility if this is really my fault because I suffer a lot from being guilty.
No one can  comfort me now. T.T...

Tmr I will go library, figure out the exact situation. No phone call, I will go by myself.
Crossed my finger tightly...  Hope everything is fine.

I love what I do.

 

 yeah, I D.I.Y my shirt.
I feel bored with the original design which is also unfit my body contour.
So, I made a change. I swear, if my mom happen to see this, she will run after me!!!
I guess boyfie won't like it if he see my results. He doesn't like me expose too much!!!
Whatever, I already started it ...blek^^

                                                                       B4 started.

I cut both my PDI shirt. But I keep my red color shirt in a more normal type of cutting. No apparent slanting collar. Just cut the sleeve and the bottom. Whereas, I make my yellow shirt a slanting collar. Make it looks "wild" when I'm wearing this. Here the picha showed my hard work *winks*.

                                                               Blek~ I heart doing this!!!

Next time, I won't be hesitated to wear these shirt.
B4 done with this D.I.Y work, I cleaned my room. Roomie is not around so it is more easier for me to do my cleaning work.
Thx my boy from giving me his new box! (which is a free gift from his RM 129 mouse from PC EXPO.)
He is really sweet~ I save money so Im happy!!!
OK, Back to the cleaning talk.
I re-arrange my book rack. Keep some book to my new blacky box. It is big enough for me to put quite a lot of things.
structured up my study table and some little girlish things to my box. (A new small box from home, I asked from my sis ^^).
Keep everything in order. Here is the new look of my study table!

                                                            My favorite corner in my room.

Apart from doing this cleaning work, I went movie with boyfie as well. What a wonderful weekend after back from home!!! Actually I just came back from home last saturday!!! Miss home nia~
Boyfie made me a key chain with out photos. He made two, one for me while another one for himself. So lovely right.

                                                                           I like it!!!


 He even made me a tooth key chain again which is really made by himself. This is my second tooth key chain!!! (he is not a key chain maker in shopping center, just he did it with some material from home!!!)
Very meaningful for me. Thx dude!!! muazkssss!!! 


Ya, mom alter the dress for me.
I bought this dress through a fashion page from internet. Love this dress from my 1st sight on it. So i bought.
 HOWEVER...it is too loose for my body. I know I small...T.T
Mom even scolded me bcos of this but she still alter for me la!!!! lol...

                                                            This is b4 the alteration. 

                                                           My hair looks suck!!! >.<

                                                       SEE!!! mommy make a miracle!!!

Definitely love my mom to the max. lol...I guess I inherit her skillful sewing skill and I make a nice D.I.Y shirt as well...(hiak hiak hiak!!!).

Sometime I just fed up with my sis. She didn't see me for month and yet she complains abt my complexion and my hair!!!

yeerrr...why ur face so dehydrated? ur hair quality is deteriorating!!!  

This is what she had complaining about my appearance.

Look at the mirror this morning, I can't deny that what she had said was right. My complexion is dehydrated.

Never mind, I will do more hydration therapy by using mask!!!
For my hair, I change a new brand hair shampoo!!! Tsubaki~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wanted to try on this brand for sometime...so it is time for Tsubaki and no more Rejoice!!!

                                                                Rejoice at the side~^^
                                                                      Tsubaki!!!

It comes with the conditioner in a package which is cost RM 28.90.
My boy said it is worthy to buy in package and I bought it.
WOW...I blog for such a long Essay here.
I think I should stop by now.
C u guys!!!

                                                                 Have a nice day!!!

Raining season.

   
Raining.
It drops outside my window.
I miss home.



OMG. This is what I want to shout for the whole day. Flip through my module book, read through the assignment guidelines, I feel so helpless.

Tmr I'm going bck home. Mom is waiting for me I guess. She said will make soup for me. YEAH!!!

I got motivation to prepare for the coming assignment and presentation. Wanna work hard for it. ^^

01.11.11

Today, a day with special numbers. Chronological date. But, still a boring day for me.
No plan for this week, I'm thinking when to go bck home. Sunday? Thursday? Still can't make a decision.

Started my thumblr last week. I have fun so far.
Checking calendar, period coming, MUET exam coming, presentation coming and assignment on the run.
Busy rite? It sounds tat my calendar is full. No fun for the next one month. =.=lll

Menstrual disorder is emotional and mood swing.

                                                                          Blek~

It is over.

Yeah, I would like to announce here that I have completed my 6th clinical placement today!!! officially we done!!! Although, it has been completed one week earlier than the exact date but still, we completed it. ^^
Seriously, I don't really enjoy this placement. It makes us mentally depressed and tensed up!!!
However, I can't deny that I gained fruitful experience in these 3 weeks time.

Firstly, I gained my confident in treating stroke patient.
I rehabilitate and facilitate patient in their daily functional task. Get them adapted to their condition which is a long term condition. It is tiring and yet inspiring. I enjoyed it.
I have to admit that I'm not good in rehabilitating long term condition, often practice ineffectively. =.=lll
But this time, I can see the outcome after the treatment. ^^
I really happy to witness this clinically. I did it somehow.
One thing I really have to improve (x100) a lot, my basic knowledge of the condition and important element in rehabilitating the patient.

Apart from this, I gained something else which is not about the studies but my perspective of how do live a life to the fullest. There is no consistent definition for good life. It is vary from person to person. I have my own. ^^
I have seen patient with TBI, Stroke, SCI, Amputee. The story behind them do inspire me. Inspire me to be a more positive thicker ( I still trying my best to achieve this). We cant predict what will happen the next in our life. So, live in the moment. Appreciate with what u having right now. I understand it is not easy than just saying.
Somehow I feel scared to accept the truth and face the reality. I glad to see those patient they being strong to accept their current condition and the impact that bring to them. They are strong.
Ok, stop being pessimistic here. SMILE．　

Deepavali~ ^^

So happy cos I can woke up without worrying about the placement!!! Today is holiday!!!!! Hooray~Happy deepavali to all my indian friendssssssssss
One thing that makes us happy the most is we might complete our placement by this week. We suppose to complete it by next week but due to some issue the hospital allow us to complete by this week. *winks* ^^
Seriously, I don't really enjoy the placement. Quite torturing!!!
However, I have learn skills ...I practice it, apply it ~ but it is too bad cos I can't do follow up case if not I would like to c the outcome from the previous treatment session.

I can't deny tat this hospital does expose me to different kind of conditions that I never see b4. it boost my resolution and make up my mind that I should really possess a very good basic knowledge. I very bad in this...and I know I need to work hard!!!!!!

The past few days was raining day. haiz...raining day always makes me down. I miss blue sky and I love blue sky!!!  I hope can lie on the green plant and look up to the blue sky...thn I should pay a visit to cameron highland right? yeah, I should just work on it.


I miss my boy. muazksssssssss~

 

*huggie* miss u, boy

Sunday morning. I love it.

Morning guys...it has been a long time since my last post. Sori, was busy in the last mth xp.
Started my 6th placement 2 weeks ago. Frankly, I don't really enjoy it and I feel so stressed up and angry for sometime. Although, I don't like it but I know I should hold my ground shouldn't be too emotional. Gambateh!!!

Hey, I made some changes to the layout of my blog. I personally like it very much!!! Hope u guys too ^^ <3
The picha that I selected as the header was courtesy of Dennis Yap photography. I downloaded from his link. Nice rite? He always has nice picha and I do admire his talent!!!

I miss home. I miss the home cook very much. I not eating well here. Just realise I being so unhealthy at this moment. Just hoping tat my weight will not go down < 43kg. Too slim doesn't make me look better !!! >.<
Recently, I am not so into facebook anymore. It makes me feel bored somehow. Ironically, I still browse through it everyday like checking everyday news of the day >.<lll

                                                                  I miss the blue sky !!!

Got to do some chores rite now. c u guys ^^